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No, not even a little bit I weigh the same as I did in highschool I had to drop out of college due to finical reasons I moved out of my house and work a shit job with shit pay I'm nothing like the person I thought or wanted to be |
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| So I have a limited amount of funds from having my meal plan refunded I've got roughly 1300 dollars left this must last me until May when I leave school and get sucked into the hell that is Long Island once more. Unless I can make serious doe. I'll deffienatly be calling the cenuse department at some point this week to try and get a job there. So I had one of th boys over the other night it was a good time to say the least ironically having sex makes me feel so much better about myself. But back to the point of why I'm updating a blog I long gave up on is because I'm returning to the the race to prefection by the end of this semseter I would like to have reached a lovely weight of 110 or 100 cause Lady GaGa is my new inspiration. Also Vainty is my new theme song for 2010. |
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| Hello It's been a while and the sad part is everything is relatively the same. I'm in college but never really do anything that includes partying and studying it's really sad. We all just chill in the dorm and drink and do nothing but the icing on the shit cake is I live in NYC so what the fuck am I doing, doing nothing thats what I want to know. Most of my lack of adventures really has to do with my financial situation which is terrible no job no money coming form my mother cause let's face it she is so fucking cheap for someone who make 100,000 a year which is disgusting. Also there is kind of a boy he is the brother of someone on my floor who I'm friends with. Its all more lustful than emotional which is good and bad. I really need to smoke but I smoked the last of my weed last night so I'm just shit out of luck. What even worse is I now day drink and solo or duo drink because I can't afford drugs it's really repulsive but I'm just trying to function and it's the only way I remember how to. |
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| CW:135 Sin ce my mother claims to have no money and won't go food shooping I hvae lost weight as a result of that. Which has it benfits. Anyways It's been an awfully long time since I updated this thing I'm probably going to start a new when college starts, a fresh start fresh xanga that I'll hopefully be able to update frequenctly since I'll be receiv ing a computer for school. ANyways I hate how I still harp on the fact that I have no friends I;m getting really tired of myself being so effected by someting that should just be considered a natural turn of events people can't stay firewnds for ever or at least I know I can't but maybe what makes this so hard is the fact that I was the dumped not the dumpee. |
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I had to go get new glasses cause some child at my job broke them by accident, I also got my invisalign which is lucky for me cause I can't eat anything with them on or drink anything but water and I'm supposed to wear the 23 hours a day. I'm currently supposed to be at school but I decided I'll sleep in then go cause I have really had enough of this high school bullshit. My mother reasoning for me going is to raise my grades up which I already did so I don't see why I need to g to school everyday when we have 16 days left and I'm legaly allowed to miss 10 more unexcused days of school. Besides I would much rather chill the fuck out and smoke some ganja than go to gym at 7 in the morning. Sometimes I miss my old life the one where I had friends or I guess what I consider to be friends the thing is I miss the days of hanging out and partying and when I was there I hated it maybe it was the company I kept. Fuck I'm so confused I sure none of this pot made any sense.
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